|"Don't answer it!"|
One day the phone rang.
“Is this, Cindy?” a man asked.
“Yes, it is.”
“I’ve read your book, Legacy of Lies.”
There was a long pause. I gulped hard. He didn’t say whether he liked the book or not. My heart physically hurt in my chest. My fear prevented me from asking what he thought of my writing. I waited in trepidation.
“I know the area you wrote about well.”
I fell into my desk chair, trembling. My life passed before my eyes. No. I didn’t think I was dying. My life had been fraught with negative experiences where I was tormented by individuals who got me into trouble for things that I had said and even things that I had never said.
I fidgeted with the notepad on my desk and dropped my pencil. Sweat sprouted out all over my body. I couldn’t control my trembling. I still couldn’t bear to ask him what he thought. I felt like he had caught me in a lie. Yes, I had been through the country I had written about, even camped there many times. But, what did I know? Even if I’d done extensive research, I wasn’t a mining expert.
His silence was driving me to the edge of my nerves. I wanted to slam the phone down. My fingers trembled against my forehead. He began telling me about his professional experience working in the area. Paranoia gripped me. I couldn’t actually comprehend what he was saying. Every negative experience I had been through raced through my mind as quickly as my heart was beating.
I decided I would never write another book. I’d talk to my publisher and see if they would cancel my contract. I finally realized I hadn’t heard a word my caller had said. I forced myself to listen.
“You did a great job. I really felt like I was there.”
I was speechless. I took a deep breath and shakily exhaled. Really? He wasn’t going to accuse me of anything?
“Well, thank you,” I said, almost in tears.
The call ended, and I rushed to the bed to lie down.
My fears still get the better of me sometimes, but I’m learning. And isn’t that what life is all about?
Cindy A. Christiansen
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